I Could Write a Book

It’s that time of the year again. I’m headed to Michigan. Whew. I can’t believe that 4 weeks of our summer has already flown by. I’ll be in Michigan for 4+ weeks and then there are only 2 weeks left after that. When did summer time get so short ?

I can’t really say how I feel about going to Michigan right now. Part of me is completely dreading it, but the other part keeps thinking that once I adjust I’ll be just fine. I pray that dh and I are able to make the trip up without contemplating divorce this time. ugh. As you know, when one is driving and there is a passenger in the car, the passenger is a captive audience. Oh what fun ! I’m going with a positive outlook (or at least trying to), an ipod filled with lots of music, and a backpack full of books. I think that should do it. LOL. "No, honey, I’m not ignoring you I’m ………… " (pick one).  Ahh, you do what you have to do.

Tomorrow is a very odd day. Part happy, part sad, part anxiety-inducing. I get to watch my little one do a "cheer" for me. That will be fun. I get to see what the boys have made for me in VBS this week.  I get to hold my dog while she is put down. ughh. That’s the sad part. Lupi is 11 years old and she’s on her last few days. She has congestive heart failure, her kidneys have stopped working, she is seizuring, can’t hold the potty ……… etc. The vet told me since I’m about to leave for a month the best thing I could do for her was put her down. I’ve never done this before and I hope I’m able to hold it together without falling apart too badly. It is so weird to look at her right now and know that after tomorrow I won’t ever see her again. ugh.

So, I’m not sure how much I’ll be blogging this next month. All depends if I’m able to get any internet there. I know I’ll take my puter into town occasionally. So, if for some reason I don’t see you all for the next month, I hope you all have a sunny summer filled with lots of love and very few rainbows.

I love you all.

Peace out,

Babycakes  

PS: I had an aboslutely wonderful time in Huntsville. I think it is beautiful. I loved the "mountains". hehe. I loved spending time with my Bama friend and I’m tickled maroon over my beautiful Bama shirt.  

Tomorrow I’m off to Alabama. Going to go see my wonderful "Bama" friend.  I’m hoping to have a very "chill" weekend. I hope I come back a little more whole. I’m a tad nervous about the trip, but I think it will do me a ton of good. I really need to get away from here. I really need to be there. I plan on coming back with a little bit of Bama in me. 

Tonight was the continuation of T’s baseball tournament. They lost by one run and boy were there some crying little boys. Yes, 9 & 10 year old boys still cry when they lose a game. Personally, I think losing the games teaches a much better life lesson than if they had won the game. They came in 3rd place , which I think is awesome, and they will have their picture in the paper. Woohoo. Good job A’s.

I’ve got more bug bites and zits on me than a teenager whose been making out in the woods for a month. Good grief. Oh, the joys of being in the woods with the Cub Scouts this week. Even though I now look like "big foot" (and I have the actual feet to match) I think they will still let me in the state of Alabama. Roll Tide !  If my LSU friends could hear me say that right now they would probably tar me. LOL.
 

I’ll be back home on Sunday evening, maybe. If for some reason you never hear back from me again - you know I’ve stayed. Lol.   I’m truly looking forward to my time in Bama. I hope you all have a great weekend ! Happy Father’s Day to all the father’s out there. Remember - everyone dies, but not everyone truly lives. Make all your days count.

Peace out. Tell the one(s) you love that you love them.

    Today is my wedding anniversary. Legally married 10 years now. Together for 16+.  I’m just going to copy something I posted to some friends. This day mentally drains me in a way. So many conflicting emotions.

    Honestly, I’m very surprised we have survived this year. He did write me a very nice card today (and got me a gorgeous watch). I’m hoping once I go to Michigan and have some time to be away from him that I’m able to heal some things in my heart and hopefully, next year, we will be doing much better. I know I need to forgive him for lots of things and let him "back in". If that makes sense. And for the record - I haven’t been perfect, either.

    We went out as a family tonight. Sushi and the movie - Kung Fu Panda. We had a really nice time. I told the kids all about our wedding and what we did on that day, etc.

   Just thought I would say that the first week of June has been much nicer than the entire month of May. It’s been a little quiet, a little fun, a little busy. I know this isn’t "New Years" but I do hope this next year is a good one in my life.

   Here’s my tidbit of the day: Everyone dies, but not everyone truly lives. Don’t forget to tell the ones you love ~I love you~ even when you argue.