I Could Write a Book

Dear Month of May,

    Goodbye Dear sucky May.  I can honestly say that I’ve never been happier in my life to see the month of May gone. Gone forever.

    In case you can’t tell by my very subtle words, May pretty much sucked in my opinion. Some of you have listened to me cry on the phone. Others have offered up prayers. I’m sure lots thought I was truly losing my mind at times. Goodness knows I was in that category. Yes, tomorrow starts "hurricane season" here, but I will gladly take a hurricane over "May" again.

    Just so you can stop trying to figure out what was so bad in my life during the month of May (and  in case dementia strikes me sooner than I expect) here are just a couple of examples: death, potential death (yes, the day dh thought he was truly having a heart attack was a fun one) (that’s sarcastic) (sorta), hernias (J has to have surgery), boils on butts(that’s private), finals (ended up with a "B" in the class) ~boo hiss~, Jr League Banquet - (that actually somehow got pulled off quite nicely), baseball games 5 nights a week (peanuts anyone?) and on and on and on. My stress level was so high at one point, I actually had a very nice gay man tell me I need to take more soy to help my menopausal symptons. (I’m not making that one up, lol)

    Goodbye ugly month of May. May I never have to live through another like you - ever. And in case you haven’t picked up this tidbit from me before — be sure and tell the one(s) you love ~ I love you ~ You truly never know when that last time will come.

butterfly kisses to all 

I am honestly about to lose my mind. If I make an “A” in this class it will be a miracle. (takes a deep breath here) I’ve got friends and neighbors who know how close to insanity I am right now and one suggested this little “Positive Pause” to me. I’m pasting it here so I can watch it over and over every time I feel the need to go jump off a bridge.

I know that I’m taking a lot of things for granted, right now. For those, I should be ashamed.

The majority of the time the only way you can see a "rainbow" is to experience the rain first. Sometimes we don’t really want the rain. We only the sunshine in our lives.

I’ve always loved rainbows. When I was 15 I asked to have my room decorated in rainbows as my birthday gift. If I had a picture scanned in here I’d show you my completely rainbow room. It makes me laugh to think of it. My walls were completely covered in rainbows, clouds, and butterflies. I had rainbow bedding and pillows. It was a rainbow overload.

To this day, rainbows make me smile. I see them as "happy". When I was in Hawaii last year I saw more rainbows on that 2 week trip than I think I have in my entire life. I also fell in love with "Iz" while I was there. I hope you enjoy the video. May you smile everytime you see a rainbow. Don’t forget to tell the one you love “I love you”.