Guilt is Powerful
Yesterday was a pretty low point in my marriage. I was completely frustrated, disappointed, hurt, angry, defeated, and on and on. Well, because of those emotions I pretty much ignored my husband the entire day. I didn’t lift a finger around the house. He obviously got the point about how upset I was. With today being Father’s Day I had gone to a little effort and had him a few nice gifts. He loved everything. He was the last one to get out of bed this morning. He got to make the decision regarding what we did today and so forth. After our lunch at the club and me being pleasant to him, the guilt kicked in. On his side I should point out. He suggested that we start working on the room today and I asked "where do you want to start ?" He told me that today he was going to listen to his wife on that one. 8 hours later I am 75% done with rearranging the front 3 bedrooms. We started in J’s room and moved her bed to the other side of the room and then went to the boys room and began. He disassembled all the furniture and helped me moved the big pieces around. I’ve done everything, but he helped me where I needed it. I’m actually very thankful for his help today. It made up for how badly I felt towards him yesterday.
I’m glad I was busy all day. It helped keep my mind off of my father. I miss him. I kept wanting to pick up the phone this morning and call him, but I’ve yet to find out the direct number to heaven. I always think back to the last Father’s Day I spent with him. Ugh. I can’t even talk about the gift I got him. I think I must have been out of my mind. It was so sad that day knowing that that was the last Father’s Day I was going to be able to spend with him. I’m not sure if I even took pics that day. I am pretty sure I did. I think I know which ones they are. That was before digital pics for me. blah.
Tomorrow starts Vacation Bible School. Yes, I’m teaching. LOL. Oh, if they only knew. It’s going to be an interesting week. VBS all morning long. Exercise - when ? I promise I’m going to exercise at least 3 days this week. That is going to be a test. Cooking ought to be interesting, too. LOL. Santa still hasn’t delivered my maid or personal chef, yet. I’m guessing I was on the naughty list this year and no one had the heart to tell me.
Sleep tight, all. I’m punch drunk. Oh, I let the battery drain on my ipod and it unfroze and my computer recognized it. Hopefully, it will continue working.
